update?

hi hi ! i haven update in so long a time. have been real busy with new school and stuff that i don't really do anything else. LOL i actually successfully appeal and got into band ! Gah feel so guilty about leaving chia and vicky in basketball..but my knee seriously hurts and cant take too much vigourous activities. Hmmm not sure i'll stay on band for long since i'm gonna join council. Hoots just hoping to be called for interview !

2 more days to bintan camp and still at the state of "what tutorial homework must i do for tomorrow?" at least i do most of my work. and i don't need to wake up as early as others to go to school ! XD yes i wake up at 6.45 everyday and i'm totally enjoying it.

another freaking day tomorrow. how on earth can they arrange 2 LONG hours of GP? well at least there's only that and the 1half hour break to physics and chemistry lectures. oh man i really don't know whether to be happy or not that i got SIC for physics. i think counting m&m's is quite fun on first practical. :D WHAT SHOULD I DO??? my lessons end at 1.40 and i still have to stay for the PRC meeting at 3.45. T.T serves me right for having too many activities for my own good. and i think im going for the NUS project thing in june too. ARGH and the CVD preparations ! oh wells cant do anything but wait for proposal to be approved which i think is most unlikely.

i think im slowly getting the hang of JC life alerady. except for the part on the 'your CTG is not your SG' type of thing. just when you feel real bonded with your class and that you can really stay close with them for 1half more years, here they are telling you that your CTG is not the same subject group as you. -.- and what is the CTG for man. if its OG at least its understandable. haix i shan't start on my complains. at least its more fun than other schools. (i think. presume. wait. i don't know. XD) econs project due tomorrow ! still have GP SPARKS and physics SIC. and tons of HW. please. as if the teachers don't know that we are going away for camp and can't be possibly doing their tutorials and HW. i should try restraining myself doing all sorts of CTG work for class rep and try to relax more but i think i'll realize i can't halfway. too in character? i guess. oh my still haven do the grouping for camp. T.T don't care at least i can shut them up if they complain about groupings since they didn't really think over it. no cca tomorrow! kinda sad since i'm 2 sessions behind the rest(i think). and i don't know anyone in band! T.T just hope that i can get into flute, clarinet or percussion. i hope the teacher won't be like when i went for band audis in sec1 : oh your lips are thin ! come, try the trumpet. and the senior just gave me the trumpet and i'm supposed to start and try to play. LOL. and cca change wasn't as bad as in SNGS where you have to go through hell first before getting to heaven?

i seriously miss hong and py lots. and ka and van and dawn and kinda the whole of FAITH. although my class now is quite alright but i still miss FAITH's loudness, playfulness, fun and totally everything, even chen lao shi. okay maybe not really him. i think that it's ironic when you always feel a sense of belonging only after you left it behind in your memories and you're suppose to move on and get on with life. constantly asking myself : did i really change that much? what caused me to change? did i forget anyone important that i will regret leaving behind? frequently all the questions seem to be yes and the feeling of remorse and helplessness will start washing over me. i guess only the few close ones will know that i will cover up and try to be cheerful everyday. well its not right to pass on your troubles and emotions to someone else correct? and i rather be a listening ear to the ones in need. i just hope that they remember they always have a friend that is behind them no matter where they go and how much they have change. ya. emotional stuff. sorry its kinda coming from a person who misses basically everyone that she is comfortable and happy with. and she'll probably feel the same way after a levels to her own class now. YAY ! lol that was random. CTG 115 and SG 10. why isant like chia or maybe even josy or jiaxin is in it? i thought PCME is the most common subject combi on the lottery. fine i shall stop complaining and move on. like mrs george said SUMO (shut up and move on) right. XD

okays i shall try my very best to update as soonest as possible. :D if i'm not that laden down with work and commitment that is. :)

i miss her. lots. i dunno whether she thinks the same way too or even knows but i just cant control myself. has she forgotten me? i don't know. has she changed? probably yes. have i change? i think so. but why cant things be like the same in the past? i don't know. maybe its just me who ain't working hard enough.